Read My Mind

Ceaseless Doubts. Vacillating Thoughts.
Last Minute Hiccups. Scares and Alarms.
Puerile Distractions. Shaken Convictions.
Panic set in. Turmoil within.
Ego Deflated. As the Final Ride Begins.

Summoning Courage. Beckoning Calm.
I ride ahead. Weathering the Storm.

Under the Realization,
that the Outcome doesn't matter,
Once you've done your part!!!

Gyaan

Disclaimer: The opinions presented herewith are entirely born out of experience – a few experienced by self and a few from what I've seen from a distance. Anybody with a differing opinion is welcome. I do not expect total consensus nor do I want to thrust my ideology through anybody's throat. Just some random musings -- all unrelated, incoherent and insane.

We are unaware that we are lying almost half the time we fib. Half the time we do not know we are lying because we warp the truth so much in our own mind.

The Human Psyche is analogous to a balloon. Blow and it inflates. Also, poke it with a tiny pin and the whole bubble deflates.

No human is ever so gracious to completely forgive another of his transgressions. How much ever one tries to forgive and forget, at the back of one’s head keep nagging those lapses.

Solitude is an absolute godsend. Though people get desolate and forlorn after a while, it gives great scope for introspection – to assess oneself and to figure out who one really is and what one really plans to do.

Every man has an unknown feminine side to him. How much of it he manages to tap surely determines how far he can get into a woman’s life.

What you have been wallowing in for a long time, you do not realize its true worth. Whatever’s out of reach is what you actually crave for.

Pick up 10 random words from a word list and categorize them into +ve and –ve based on what they convey. You’ll most probably end up with a 3:7 ratio.

P.S: Not written while in a melancholic disposition. Better termed sober or even vacuous would be apposite.

Exam Induced Rest

I sure want to write about lots of stuff. But then, I really wonder if there is no time at all to pen down a few thoughts......

After the rigors of a MidSem Examination, I cannot think of anything else but rest the mind and give it some respite -- it deserves that I guess. As regards my performance, maybe the exams were just mediocre in every sense of the word but then I racked my brains damn hard and hence the well deserved breather.

P.S : Rest included completing 2 seasons of 'How I met your mother' -- Awesome Barney
A few P G Wodehouse Shorties -- Great Humour, Great Writing
Lil' bit of Freakonomics -- I haven't completed it yet :O
Scanning for new sitcoms -- Ventured into WonderYears, Joey, Gossip Girl, Rules of Engagement but honestly, I didn't like any.
Rummaging for Modern Rock Songs
And then hours and hours together on ''Quizroom2" on DC++ -- Awesome Place for Vocab enthusiasts. Whoa!!! This place rocks.

And here's a cute lil' game on the net I've been playin'.

I'd better get back to completing the code I'd have to submit tomorrow for the Evolutionary Computing Lab {Trust me, the course is as boring as the course name sounds interesting}. And btw, Rest Time's Over.

Nothing's goin' right

-- A switch in the LAN box trips and the whole wing is mired in darkness ( I mean disconnected from the rest of the world) for one whole week :O No mails, no DC++, no quizroom. For my wingies there is no Orkut, no CS, no AOE. It's worse than being starved.
-- It's my project guide's course and I turn up without doing my assignment. I botch up something clumsily on paper, create a few equations out of thin air, as he arrives checking. He notices the gibberish in my notebook and displays a stern face. What does that mean???
-- I do a little project work on my comp and the comp seems to have aged. Running a slightly cumbersome image conversion program crashes the system and restarts involuntarily. Should I get myself a laptop???
-- I meet my project guide almost after a gap of 20 days and all he says is "Keep meeting me now and then man."
-- I meet my guide for the 4th time in almost a week and he mistakes my aim at redemption for wanting more work and dumps a huge project onto me. What a pity!!! Now I have to work atleast 6 hours a week in the lab. Thank God, it's still coding that I get to do.
-- The first simulated CAT exam and I mess up while blackening the ovals on the OMR sheet.
-- The LAN starts working after a week and I open my inbox to find it empty :O
-- I take up a tag by TF and once Scribefire crashes and the other time the computer reboots for no reason. Rewrote it again from scratch.

Life's turning out quite Crazy. Huge workload and confusing schedules. Priorities keep changing by the minute. I do not know what to do.
I hate my life. Period. As I was telling mom the other day, 96 hours a day still wouldn't suffice to get me complete my work.
And again, I haven't been this busy in years. So I guess I am enjoying it as well. I love my life. How Ironic is that??? Or how much more INSANE can I get???

Music It is

Another tag by The twilightfairy
This time its about music.

1. Which song is being played in your mind right now?

“You were my everything” by Aviation.
I’ve heard this one over 60 times today. So what else could blare in my head right at this instant?

2. One song that describes your life…. (no self made compositions please)

“Patience” by Take That
“Bad Day” by Daniel Powter
“Chasing Cars” by Snow Patrol
“Trouble Sleeping” by The Perishers
“It ends tonight” by The All American Rejects
“It’s not Over” by Daughtry

Life’s so byzantine and convoluted that to encapsulate it within one song would be entirely out of question. So maybe the assortment here might paint a faint sketch of me. It’s got more to do with feel and the mood of the songs than with the lyrics....

3.The song you listen to most on your Ipod/Mp3 player/Cell/PC etc…

Most songs have a relatively short shelf-life when it comes to me. I listen repeatedly to a song until it isn’t fresh anymore or until I find another one. Poor “Dave”, who unfortunately is my neighbour, has to endure the same song repeatedly blaring from my speakers – mostly I use the repeat mode. Like it is “You were my everything” from Aviation today, “Paas Aaya Kyon” last week, Rihanna’s “Umbrella” the week before that and “Laare Choote” sometime in April ;)

But then there are those that surpass all boundaries and are a pleasure to the ears. These are the few that I turn to when I am down and out and need to rejuvenate, when I am happy and want to feel exuberant, when I am dismal and want to feel better and sometimes fro no reason at all. A few such that I can recollect right at this instant, I’ll mention below.

“Iris” –Goo Goo Dolls
“Hero” – Enrique Iglesias
“The Reason” - Hoobastank
“You’re Beautiful” - James Blunt
“Dream On” – Aerosmith
“Words” – Boyzone
“Hotel California” – Eagles
“Stairway to Heaven” – Led Zeppelin
“When you say nothing at all” – Ronan Keating
“Thank You” – Dido
“Diary of Jane” – Breaking Benjamin
“Horse with no name” –Americans
“Late GoodBye” – Poets of the Fall
“So Sick of Love songs” – Ne-Yo as well as the female version
“Wonderwall” - Oasis

Guess, I’d better stop here and move on.

4. A song that best describes the following days in your life.

School/College Days –“Summer of ’69” by Bryan Adams. Nothing else strikes my memory when you say school days. The selection is self explanatory.

Love – haven’t experienced it. So I’ll just quote the most romantic songs I’ve heard.
“Nothing in the world” by Atomic Kitten
“She’s Everything” by Brad Paisley. The lovely lyrics epitomize the perfect girlfriend I guess. I might be wrong, though.

Mood right now – “Colorblind” by Darius. Confused yet feels fine. Replace the girl in the song with workload.

5. Your all time favourite song, and the reason for it... maybe some memory/ some funny story/etc!!!
“Yeh Haseen Waadiyaan” from Roja
Rehman’s first and his best.

I remember singing this in some compulsory singing competition in school(must have been in class IV then) and amazingly ended up being selected for the school choir.

6. A song u wish u hadn't heard!!! (more than one is always a pleasure!!!)
Him(s)hesh Reshammiya -- No second thoughts on that.
Man!!! Is he a pain in the arse???

On a trip from Mysore to Ooty the driver couldn’t seem to get enough of him and we had to endure the songs all along the 6 hour trip and no prizes for guessing who ended up with a headache.

7. A song that would best describe..... Me[twilightfairy]
(Hey, I took pains to tag u, I guess I deserve this ;-) )
I do not know much about you. Everything I know about you is from reading the posts on your blog. So you maybe just come across as sweet and nice.
I am tempted to say “Angel of the Morning” by The Pretenders ;)

But then let me go with this lovely piece – “The Mass” by Era. Note the aura in the song.

8. If you were in an elevator with Himesh Reshammiya and Altaf Raja, you would..........
Murder Himesh by slitting his throat. Or cut off his nose, so he further can’t sing. Altaf doesn’t bother me that much.

Now to further tag somebody, I'd like to see Dave(my music GURU) write a similar one as and when he starts his blog. For now 'Rampage' I tag.

Roger Federer -- The Artist

I'd been wanting to write something about Federer for quite some time now. But then, With my limited vocab, I feared I would just be belittling the sublime artistry of the wonderful champion. His mind-numbing repertoire and arsenal of shots, his ability to change gears in a jiffy, his on court cool, calm and collected disposition, his amazing handling of pressure situations, his off court charity works, his body language and attitude, his respect for the legends as well as his peers, the humour and humility preset in his press conferences, his striking looks, his gorgeous smile...... Ooh!!! I can go on and on.

But then before I say anything more about the master, all his greatness is encompassed in this absolutely wonderful NIKE Ad. With a voice over by Tiger Woods and the absolutely apt music, this ad has been one of the best I have seen over the years. The twist at the end makes it all the more worthwhile.

P.S : For all the Nadal fans and Sampras aficionados, I truly admire them both too. Let's not compare Sampras and Federer. They were the best of their generation. How they would have fared if pitted against each other in their primes is just fodder for speculation. And Nadal is undoubtedly the best clay courter ever and might catch up with Federer very soon on the other surfaces as well. Love his fighting spirit.